.
.
Some people laugh and laugh
and yet you want to cry.
Some people touch your hand
And music fills the sky.
me
.me. ling
.age. 17
.dob. 14th May 1990
.cca. part-time saigang amazon, full time elddfs member
.eternal.love. nygg
I love
.Dance.
.Music.
.Reading.
.Dark Chocolate.
.Roses.
current lustings
.Overloaded.The Singles Edition | Sugababes.
.Call Me Irresponsible | Michael Buble.
.Shania Twain's greatest hits compilation.
.The Upper Room couch.
.Rendezvous.
Because I am really shameless . 13.05.08 . 8.44pm
(and because I am somewhat emotional)
Disclaimer: Merci, to my close friends who have beeen more than supportive and understanding. For encouraging me, putting up with nonsense, buying tickets, for being apologetic that shake! tickets sold out. I hold you dear to my heart.
If you truly, sincerely want to buy an eighteen year old yours truly a birthday present, then buy a ticket to HTOHL.
There is nothing more I want than to see our immense talent, blood, sweat and tears recognised, enjoyed. It is important to my cca.
I believe acknowledgement is intangible, but those not in the know can/may/will only judge us by sales figures, audience rates. It sucks into a vicious cycle. Bad sales, low turnout last year? Then I better not go this year. (For the record, we filled 70% last year) Add that to the occasional perception that we're a bunch of HP, West-embracing exclusive wannabes.
If you can fork out $8 to buy a cake, a soft toy, half a cd to pleae me, you can definitely fork out the same amount to buy a ticket, with much higher returns.
Do not tell me if you don't intend to go. I do not need to know. Just buy. A golden ticket. To save the souls of the amazing cast, directors and crew who ahve pitched their lives to make this happen. For the souls who love drama, need it like the air you breathe.
Hiatus . 08.12.07 . 9.31pm
Indefinite.
Dolce vita
Today . 15.11.07 . 8.34pm
Listening to | Shape | Sugababes ft Sting
I've always played it safe nothing's ever safe
Give me the courage to back my own convictions
Every decision I make I pay it back and more
No sadness tonight, there are many things to be happy about, it will be selfish to be pensive.
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Morning. Did laundry. It's the only thing I'm hardworking about nowadays, housework. And it's not even like I enjoy doing it. I guess I'm tired of history term assignments. I kind of knew that history was not the thing for me, even when I chose to take it up in JC. There's some lingering interest, and a fair bit of dedication. But it's not passion, unlike, say, the kid I saw at the library the other day. Reading in a completely mesmerised and serious fashion these thick huge history books that I wouldn't touch if I didn't have to. For me, the more history you pile on me, the more adverse the effects.
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Fastforward to afternoon, that's where the real joy is. Met Jia today, LOVE YOU BABE/NINJIA.
We went to Holland V, that place has so much food, and I wanted to try abit of everything. But Holland V is hurting for my tiny pockets. We blew our money on NYDC (never been there before), I should have asked Jia to bring her boyfriend (meaning camera) along, then could have posted yummy tantalising photos of the tiramisu mudpie and three amigo that we shared for a late lunch.
I love talking to Jia. Jia you fascinate me endlessly with all this crazy intriguing stuff that I wouldn't know about otherwise if not for your awesomeness. And I revel in this irrelevance, I think I love it.
And then we had baking urges. When we say bake, we don't mean serious crazy baking chops that turn out mouth-watering effects. We mean, for fun. We wanted to make cupcakes, but then neither of us knew a recipe for it (and didn't quite fancy blueberry muffin premix) so we went for this chocolate fudge cake which claimed that it could become cupcakes too. So popped back to Jia's place and we played with the food. Too wet for our likings, but still its food! ^^
And as I told Jia, my house, when I own my own, must have four main things: a clean lovely toilet, a very comfortable bed, a very comfortable couch that could double as a bed, and an oven.
<3 Jia.
We need to go out somewhere!
Yu'er! Faris! Soon! I need to rendezvous the two of you!
Term Assignment . 13.11.07 . 5.06pm
Listening to | Once Upon A December | Anastascia OST
DIE HISTORY DIE
Soon, you will be history. please ignore the bad pun
Post REACT . 10.11.07 . 9.44pm
Listening to | Blind | Lifehouse
There's this nice little high school guy called Yuan Jun who went to REA:CT and wanted me to add him on msn. [Random observation: When I was in NY, high school boys were in general referred to as annoying things. Now that I'm older than them, they're either annoying brats to be ignored or amusing little kids. Maybe I just have issues with my batch of boys] Then he couldn't wait and decided to add me first. Then he talks to me for all of 10 minutes and pang-sehs me to find his RE:ACT cert. which he better or I would smack him
Hi baby don't break a poor old woman's heart - -"
CRIPES HOMEWORK. THANKS KAI JUN FOR THE REMINDER. CRY.
But Kai Jun is awesome help with post mortem. He always has all these awesome ideas everywhere. *bows at world's best assassin's feet*
Ok still need to talk to a couple more people for post mortem. Ideally I should cover everyone, but I think for now I'll just contend with those who are more expressive. So I've talked to Chris, Kai Jun, Angelique, Kuang Li, a bit of Shangda. I need to talk to Marcus, Ezra, Chuan Xin, Darrell, Ziwei. Wah. >< Ok history first k. I have 5 less days to do history than post mortem.
Why . 09.10.07 . 2.44pm
Listening to | I Will Remember You | Sarah Maclachlan
I'm so tired
But I can't sleep
Standing on the edge
Of something much too deep
I think I'm lost, trying to figure out a direction in which my life is moving. I don't really think it's the destination I care about, but the need to be conscious, to be aware of why I do the things I do.I'm tired, a lot of things have gone wrong this year in spite of the many good things that have happened. The things that have become/stayed good seem to be continuations or growth from the past, like the strengthening of friendship with many of my NY GEPers, becoming more familiar with HP-GEP people I had previously met but never really talked to and academically speaking, an improvement in my analytical skills where Lit and History are concerned, quite slowly coming out of my shell where singing and drama are concerned. I am thankful for them, though I know I cannot just expect things to remain constant.
But the things that started of this year seem to be falling apart into pieces now. Friendships, working relations, major events and projects which I thought would bring me joy and a good challenge but instead leave me sapped of mind, body and soul. "Don't take your life too seriously" is good advice, I guess, but that's my character flaw and I'm getting tired of being faulted (if not yet in a harsh manner) for that. I don't think it's intentional, but sometimes people make me feel like I've sinned for being a worrywart.
Seeing BGRs of friends strained and tested have left me even more afraid than I was about the prospects of relationships in the near future. It becomes an evermore distant idea, for fear that I will commit the same irrational follies, bringing pain to others. My confusion about platonic and romantic intentions only complicate the issue further.
But oh, life goes on.
Hmm . 27.10.07 . 2.44pm
Listening to | Finally Found | The Honeyz
Random musing, anyone cares to answer this?
Why do clothes get darker in colour when they're wet?
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Wah Kai Jun, please tease me huh =/
(with regards to asking Kai Jun where first aiders would be stationed during our RE:ACT! field trip)
Most likely charlene will be at fort canning and you, Hong Ling, will be at Hong Lim Park
It's hilarious. Sali gets constant assasination and ursupation of throne attempts and I get defiant minions. Lol Ben, find a mishap!
These words 09.10.07 . 8:50 PM
Listening to | Together Again | Janet Jackson
I think it's going somewhere! Panic makes people do their work. I hope.
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Please take care of your self =/
There are less painful ways to self destruction. Or does it only feel like destruction when you feel pain?
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Meh. There goes my dance partner, who says he has two left feet. It's ok, I don't blame him. But I want to make good my promise to Carlos, who says there aren't enough people to dance for Ares as it is. Uh. see how lah.
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Eep. Finally I get down to doing the meme that Jun Hong tagged me to do many many days ago ><
Each player of the game starts by writing 6 weird things about themselves before choosing another 6 of their friends to "sabo". People who gets tagged needs to write in a blog of their own, 6 weird things about themselves and state the rules clearly.
#1 Noodles and soup are my absolute comfort food; sometimes it might get obsessive when I'm upset
#2 Like Jun Hong, I'm scared of needles. But uh. Not too bad lah >< I just cannot look, that's all.
#3 I really wanted to do Theatre Studies. But then hwach only offering it to the next batch. Sigh.
#4 I have lucid dreams - therefore dreams where you are conscious that you are dreaming, and you can control certain things. Very emotionally exhausting.
#5 I think my myopia is linked to puberty. Cos sometimes myopia is affected by growth, which changes the shape of your retina (Cue long physics explanations of reflection, refraction, etc) In the years that I had my growth spurt it got quite bad, but now that I don't grow anymore it's stopped detoirating. So I can't say I'm upset about being short.
#6 I'm a secret feminist. Don't make me bare my claws. It gets. Nasty.
I refuse to sabo people =\
Memory . 03.10.07 . 4.52pm
Listening to | I Will Remember You | Sarah Maclachlan
It's funny how the human mind works. There are some people I spend in the same school for 5 years, and I barely remember their names, what they are look, or even how they look like. Then there are those you only spend 1, sometimes 2 years with - in your formative years at that - and you remember for a decade to come.
It makes me wonder what it is that makes me remember you. I really don't know. I don't suppose you can say character, because most people change from the time they are little kids to the times when they are teenagers. So maybe it's a dream, an image that I remember, and the person I recognise today merely has the same face as before, and a common past. But that's all.
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Never heard anyone laugh when they found out I was in GEP. In a nice sort of way, totally unrelated to the matter at hand. I kind of like it, in the sense that it's so different from other tenuous times where people ask the question as if it were a cardinal sin, and then treat you with vague apprehension thereafter.
Aye, I like feeling accepted for who I am.
So thank you, even though I didn't say so.
MAF . 15.09.07 . 10.48pm
Listening to | Poster Girl | Backstreet Boys
She said what good is tomorrow without a guarantee
I think council did a smashing job; maf was awesome.
I came slightly earlier after mugging and I was just standing around getting an aerial view of the lightup. Hats off to council. I don't know how these people managed to connect all that lighting up, get everything together, tie things securely to the railings, get it all to work without fusing a switch or something. Centrepiece was pretty awesome, especially when it lit up. Water fountain. So high!
I guess in a way my sis is right. She says I've been totally brain-washed into a sappy school-proud hc gal. Who used to snub the same place. I realised I just didn't like the way our teachers had to deal with some things, but these people that I've met here in hc, friends, schoolmates, teachers. They make life here awesome. And as I looked on as last minute preparations were met, I felt a little twitching in the nose, the kind I get with the onset of tears. No I didn't cry, but there's this pride that swells inside, that hey. This is the school I belong to. There are these awesome dedicated people I know who go all out.
I think I exercised more tonight than I have in the past term. Had fun tonight. Singing college songs, hugging people, meeting my juniors, hanging out with hp kias, doing mass dances (thanks Jya!), seeing grand seniors going totally wild, etc.
Rest well, people.
Eek . 06.09.07 . 9.57pm
Listening to | Hold Me | Savage Garden
Math remedial today. Ok, this was a bit more productive than Monday's session, at least I understood more stuff, even if I needed more prodding to get into the right (general) direction. Thank you Mr Tan =) I really appreciate your efforts, and also thanks muchly to my classmates who help me along the way.
Ahhh mugging was unproductive. Sorry Nat, sorry Faris, this happens because I miss you gals very much and haven't seen/talked decently to you all in awhile, so I cannot stop talking to you gals and distracting you from your work >< *SQUISHES*
And sorry Jiada too =\ (delta h = negative infinity!) I think cycling to school is cool, but not something I would dare to try (I'm a coward, yes) Thanks Ezra for helping Faris buy food and adding to our convos. I hope the glitter comes out soon, glitter in your eyelids is not a comforting thought at all.
BRIDGE. I miss playing bridge. Ahh today's two rounds were not that great. I think I'm losing touch with bridge. Nat! Teach me contract some time, when you aren't tired of teaching contract, and when you have time =) And I WILL crash RJ soon, tell me a convenient date for you. Plusplusplus lemme harrass Yu'er and Jia and Manda and Juanyi too!!
Must.Find.Back.My.Mugging.Stamina.Yes.
I will do my best to revert my attention to Japanese Occupation now.
Remininsce . 04.09.07 . 11.09pm
Listening to | For All Times | Soluna
409 day... I'm thankful for Xinyi's reminder. And I agree with Jing, that sec 3 and 4 days remind me of many happy memories. Sense of wonderment!
3/409 gave me the chance to get to know new people, and to become closer to some of them who I'd previously known, either from my 1/211 days or the twelvers and thirteeners. Jing, Cheryl, Silin, Sam, Tian, spending four years in the same classes as you gals have been good, I do like talking to you gals. And I'll always remember Jing on your guitar and your lovely singing voice. (And save the earth)! Eve and Lyc - Laurel and Hardy, Xiu and Ying - TwiddleDee and TwiddleDum, thanks so much for bringing so much joy and laughter to our class. Adeline and Henghui, I remember amusing convos with you all! Mel and Clara, alternating between random and crazy is a nice state to be in. (Clara I poke your intestines out again) Xinyi!! My bridge and talk-to partner... I love spending time with you; all the fun and the heart-to-heart and the randomness and the EVERYTHING. *huggles* Christalchristalchristal! Seatmate of (or is it 6) terms! Thank you for being my wonderful friend, for being there for me, for making me laugh, for letting me oogle at your wolves and percussion skills, for drawing me my own wolf, for being my advanced lit partner, for being you!
Mr K, Mrs Kuan, Laoshi, Miss Choo, Mr Chan, Mrs Lim, Mrs Chan, Miss Ng, Zhuo lao shi, thank you for everything you've done for us, and for putting up with the weird things we make you all do =)
409 <3
Inspire 07 . 24.08.07 . 10.59pm
Listening to | Insatiable | Darren Hayes
Inspire 07. In the end I'm glad I went; it was a good concert. I didn't expect to see so many people I knew performing, but let me go item by item. (Jia I miss you so; I even miss watching you do AV duty)
Alan Tang! "student, scholar, writer, emcee" and I cannot remember what else. My dear boy, I find you funny.
We started off with the Lindyhop performance. I was hoping to see more technique, but nonetheless the comic element of the performance (and Hokkien song!) was entertaining.
Then the Singapore Ballet Academy. I really couldn't understand the symbolism of the dance, but their technique was "wow" and they were graceful. It was good.
RJ string quartet seranaded us with familiar favourites. The playing was good, but (this is a personal bias) I've always had this preference for performers who pour the passion into their every move and note.
ATEE! Amanda Tee is LOVE in capital letters, bolded. I haven't seen her in a year, and her music has become even more awesome than it already was. Her voice is this beautiful balance between husky and sweet, crystal clear and full; you have to hear it yourself to know. I love her singing.
HC MAD performed "Breathe of Life". It was just beautiful. I really appreciate the beauty in the song now that I've seen the dance. I can't describe the magnificent way the dance (to me) is both about the individual uniqueness and that strong unity and trust they have in one another. The use of the stage structure to suspend the red cloths was an unexpected surprise. As Melo puts it, she's never seen dance like this before. Gorgeous.
Rocky Waters was up after the intermission. I liked the drums (and I want to learn them some time) I liked the songs they sang, but there seemed to a slight something missing that would have impressed me otherwise. Patent Pending's singer has a gorgeous voice that is capable of doing many genres. I want to hear her do Christina Aguilera's pieces.
ASCian theatre. I really didn't understand the piece, but they were good at what they do (and I can also see why they charge 50plus for their tickets) GNat, Chu Ting, Sara, (Janice?), Yun Ning. And Nic and I had fun with Eiderweiss =)
The Illers bowled us over. I know nuts about hiphop, but it was good (especially the beatbox/music guys) They are so darn talented, they leave us speechless.
This afternoon was good too. I had so much fun singing with Marcus, Melo, Sali and Darrell today. I haven't sung with such abandonment in quite awhile. It's both cathartic and tiring. (I'm finally using my diaphargm properly again) Sali and Melo told me that I have a good singing voice, and that I should go busking with them. But I've never thought of my voice as being beautiful or good, and singing in a classroom with friends is a very different kettle from singing in public to raise funds.
Pensive . 19.08.07 . 6.18pm
Listening to | Wherever You Will Go | The Calling
I look out of the window at the rain pouring outside, and somehow it seems to me that this is a sad, melancholic rain. There's something very lonely and needy about it.
I muse about the possibilities of having been a soceress/witch/healer in medieval forests in my last life - if there is such a thing as reincarnation. This connection with nature that is so often associated with these women, though for the most part I'm only sensitive to rain and wind.
I am supposed to be mugging math, but I've been distracted for about half an hour; this is not good at all =\
I wonder if this is silly on my part - I have this tendency to associate places with people. And every time I go back to these places/think about that, I will think about these people, and the things we did or the things I want to tell them. The 410 class bench, the bench outside the Math dept, the quadrangle, the guide room, Fort Canning, the Upper Room, LT3, Drama Centre, and so on.
But cherishing memories doesn't equate living in the past, does it? It just means I have sentimentality, no?
Randomly . 15.08.07 . 8.32pm
Listening to | Life Goes On | LeAnn Rimes
I forgot that when it's the time of the month, I am more lethargic than usual =\ which means my being proud of surviving a mere 3 hours of sleep last night didn't hold. I slept for 2 hours after doing WR, and I'm still tired =\
I don't think he would see this. But anyway he'll probably hear it from me (and Sali) a lot. Ben Chow, you're the godddess. You and your awesome Overview (and work allocation and email). I like the way you spinned it! Ok now I must match up with an equally imba Theme. I feel inspired by his work =)
I think the two of us are quite funny, the way we encourage each other to do work. We have great aspirations to carry on/exceed Sihui's already-accertained-and-worshipped goddess state. Our reasoning: "since we have two VPs we must attempt to better everything she's done"! And we also OCD over formatting. Comes with the occupation, I guess ><
Scheduling the programme lineup is no easy feat. You have to think about whether the various wings are getting enough time, if it is an appropriate duration and timing, etc etc. Trying to pack so many things (what's more, we want a smashing Field Trip this year) into 3 days is tough.
I realise I talk a lot about LD, in particular Re:ACT! nowadays. I guess it's inevitable. It's become such a big part of my life. It's not just the work, but also the people, the experience. Everything.
I can't wait for the list of facils to be out. No, this really has nothing to do with our side plans of matchmaking. I really want to see the whole Re:ACT team fall into place, come to life. Somehow I think I'll feel more settled when I see our total strength, rather than just the exco. Cos that's what Re:ACT's supposed to do, unite LD to pull off this one big event, including anyone and everyone who wants to be part of it. To share this tremendously awesome and scarily humongous project wtith anyone who cares about it.
Ramble . 09.08.07 . 8.48pm
Listening to | Too Lost In You | Sugababes
Well you whispered to me
And I shivered inside
You run to me, you move me
In ways undefined
I'm dreaming about dancing again. It's something that I have a tendency of falling into when I listen to my collection of slow, sensual songs. Falling Into You, Too Lost In You, etc.
There's a beauty to it, the ability to convey the meaning in the lyrics and my own connection to them in fluid movements. Each nuance pouring into liquid movements, brimming with meaning.
And again and again. The yearning that never leaves me completely.
It was a dream.
And it is only a dream.
[9.24pm edit]
Listening to | All I Want For Christmas Is You | Mariah Carey
I realise in interesting ways being so involved in LD is kind of like being part of a married couple. We bicker good-naturedly non-stop, we bitch to each other, get angry with each other, say the most outrageously flirtatious things toe ach other, and we feed each other. E.g. I'll be in the middle of asking a serious question, say asking about the accounts during JTS, and the person I'm talking to randomly feeds me with whatever they had intended to eat. It stuns me, but also makes me laugh. The sense of belonging and being needed.
I like the feeling.
Recollect . 06.08.07 . 10.26pm
Listening to | What You're Made Of | Lucie Silvas
Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time
But it's alright
Awesome song. Haven't heard it in awhile.
Somehow it reminds me of you, kind of bittersweet. But it no longer hurts, and I am not sad. And it was never your fault.
Food Fetish . 02.08.07 . 10.58pm
Listening to | Geek In The Pink | Jason Mraz
I'm really dosing off, so just a quick post before I completely zonk out.
I'm sorry Jiada. Guess I wasn't much help with your GP essay >< Tourism is not my best topic.
Baked the Mississipi Mud Bundt Cake for Sihui with Ben today. And it was gorgeous, in terms of looks (not those classy polished kind of look, but in a I-want-to-sink-my-teeth-into-this-right-now kind of look) smell and taste. First cake ever that I've baked, and have to thank Ben so much for being the experienced one.
At first I thought it would be too sweet or coffee-ish, but there was good balance in all the ingredients, and we reduced the sugar by a little because the baking chocolate was quite sweet on its own. That cake has almost a full cup of brandy in there. Thought I was going to get drunk merely smelling the brandy, but it settled well and make the cake awesomely yummy. And the glaze is <3 Thick, gooey, buttery and sweet all at once. Balances the bitterness of coffee and brandy damn well. You should have seen Ben's expression when he ate the glazed cake. Perfect picture of bliss.
Really have to thank his mom and maid for all their help. They're really helpful with tips and feedback. And the curry they were cooking has given me a craving for thick (not too spicy) curry. Drenching rice in curry is <3 It smelt soooooo good. Ben's mom says the trick is fresh milk. They invited me to stay for dinner, but I couldn't, so sigh. I suppress my curry eating desires. Maybe I'll snitch my mom's recipe and play with it a little.
Handover cum JTS tomorrow. And despite Sali's encouragement to dress up, I'm kind of neglecting that for once tomorrow >< Really want to be able to slouch around without worrying about wrinkles or necklines or sitting pretty. I know it kind of goes against the harem-ness of Kazbal, but you must remember that couches are meant for sprawling into/onto.
Ok sleep time. Night folks.
Random . 28.07.07 . 8.32pm
Listening to | Sparkling Diamonds | Moulin Rouge
Long ramblings ahead. You were warned.
Wonder how Tapestry turned out, considering that it was raining quite a lot today. Hope my MAD friends and Ben had fun!
I'm seriously considering getting a phone plan. I can't go on using pre-paid forever. It requires me to scrimp and save to a ridiculous amount and totally eats up my money. The problem's worse now that I'm in exco, cos I really, really need to be easily contactable, and I need to do a lot of correspondence and liasing. I can't make Ben do all that; it's not fair. Now I have to search for a plan and convince my dad that it is really worth it. Any really cheap plans you guys know of? (The keyword is CHEAP. Like really DIRT CHEAP)
Helped out at HC Debate Invitationals. My first formal debate event. I'm still quite clueless about the debate circuit, but I'm a little more informed about how it works now. The judges are of aweseome calibre. They are really, really good. I like hearing them speak.
Was reading through the first few pages of Camp Re:ACT! 06 resource file and was left in awe of my seniors' abilities. There is so much liasing, manpower allocation and planning in there. The planning and manpower part I've had exposure through guides camps but liasing is quite new to me. Jiayou jiayou exco!
Caught up with Jia, Nat, Yu'er and Juanyi at Jia's place today. <3 Really miss them muchly. My awesome friends. Why aren't there more people like you gals? Or it is precisely my fortune that I have gotten to know rare gems like you all. And we spammed lots of bridge, random talking, ice cream, popiah and card guessing today. Apparently I'm kind of psychic when it comes to getting the card suit and number right *raises eyebrow*
I realise I have quite a number of tests and assignments next week. Which involve a fair bit of revision. But I am tired tonight *pout* I think I'll look through the Re:ACT! resource file tonight, turn in early, then do studying tomorrow.
Tiptoe Through The Tombstones . 20.05.07 . 3.37pm
Listening to | Chained To You | Savage Garden
It's been a crazy, crazy, absolutely crazy week. Frustration, excitement, joy, laughter, adrenaline rush. ELDDFS Production 07. Tiptoe Through The Tombstones. 18 & 19 May. 7.30pm. HCI Drama Centre. Spectacular, spectacular. Nothing of the vernacular.
Firstly, let me thank all my saigang warriors and amazon for being such awesome company. You made this journey such a memorablely good one. Thank you (in no order of merit) Jack, Greg, Ryan, Tristan, Ervin, Alan, Bernice, Kylie, Xiang Hui, Jian Yang, Kai Jun, Kuang Li, Shang Da, Wei Bin, Zhang, Amanda, Karen, Fo, Yong Hao, Ben, Si Hui. Nothing would have been possible without every one of us set builders. Our lovely set!! Aesthetically pleasing and functional... We must have spent more than 100 hours devoted to it.Thank you cast, (Zhengxun, Rachel, Nigel, Melo, Sali, Shangda, Kevin, Allison, Wai Lumm, Bernice) for putting up such an incredible show which had the audience constantly bursting out into laughter. And for providing much entertainment during tech runs and dc set sessions... And Melo who put food backstage for anyone who needed a nibble...
Thank you Amanda and Mr Perry for being at the helm and ensuring that everything would eventually fall into place. Thank you backstage crew, lights/sound crew, ushers for all the hard work you all put in.
Won't ever forgot the accidental coincidence on Friday night which made "97 year old grandmother with a machine gun stuck to her wheelchair" funnier than it already is.
Thank you my non-LD friends and seniors who have remained supportive in these few weeks. I'm sorry if I have neglected you all due to my busy schedule...I will make it up to you! 07A13, Ezra, Nat, Jonathan, Jun Hong, Kar Weng, Xinyi, Bonn, Shuey, Christal, Silin, Mel... Merci. What would I be without you?
I really can't express in words how much this journey means to me. There has been so much happiness admist the pressure, flurry of activities and stress. Even on my most emo days, my saigang warriors never fail to cheer me up. And I couldn't ask for a better way to spend my birthday this year than with friends who care. As the curtains fell for the last time on Saturday night, I am caught between joy and pride at the (raving) success of our production as well as wistful sadness that it has finally come to an end...There will still be set deconstruction, packing and post-mortem to do. Yet, somehow curtain call seems to signify the official ending.
[edit] I won't forget so many things... The saigang cheers. Set. The messy paint. The sweat and blood (yes, some people had splinters and cuts) The funny episodes. The late nights. Having someone to walk me out on those nights (Thank you all the more because you didn't have to do it) Fighting over/on the couch. The troublesome door. The crazy smoke machine. The sweltering humidity on performance nights. Blasting fac dance music at the risk of being zhammed by Apollo. Being crowned saigang amazon. Pimping flowers (Oh Ryan, would you like to buy a flower for me?) All the friends. [/edit]
I look forward to our next big project!
Thankful . 14.05.07 . 9.21pm
Listening to | Could Not Ask For More | Edward McCain
Thanks you SOOO much everybody for your well wishes today!! I didn't exactly wake up this morning in the best of moods, but it makes everyone's blessings even sweeter.
Thank you (In alphabetical order) Caroline, Christal, Darrell, Ezra, Eileen, HK, Jasmine, Jesslyn, Jolene, Jonathan, Jun Hong, Kelly, Lincoln, Li Ping, Li Tang, Lynn, Nat, Nicole, Marilyn, Miss Liew, Rachel, Ruo Shuang, Qin Sheng, Sim Chun, Sandy, Xinyi, Wen Jing, Yanan, Yiyuan, Yuxuan, Yvonne!! I'm sorry if I left anyone out alright... I didn't mean it...
And special thanks to the set crew for birthday song and such!! (again, alphabetical) Alan, Bernice, Jack, Jian Yang, Kai Jun, Kuang Li, Shang Da, Tristan, Wei Bin, Zhang!! Gogo Saigang warriors!!
Darrell and his awesome sales pitch!! We sold four (and maybe fifty) tickets at Barker!! I hope they confrim the fifty. Please, please, please Drama Boys... Be nice to us? And he is amazingly sweet. He bought me a drink just cos it's my birthday... Thank you so much Darrell!!
The funniest phrase of today: "SHOW SOME LEG" We were having a little bit of trouble selling tics at first, and asked Karen for advice. That's what she said. Hmm. Anyway kudos to that super enthu guy who bought our tickets without batting an eyelid =)
I really don't know how to explain how I feel now. So all I can say is. I hope this will be a great year ahead!!
Rouge . 29.04.07 . 10.20am
Fac Outing was yesterday night, at The Pines Country Club. I'm not sure if we stuck to "Rouge", but it certainly was a Red Affair. The Fac Comm and our EC/FC put in so much effort to decorate the place, to come up with dozens of pick-up lines, purchase the 200 plus roses, to plan the activities, putting everything together to the best of their ability for our enjoyment. And Xiao Yi & Carmen, our lovely emcees!
Thank You Mrs Ng, Mr Teh, Yee Kai, Jian Yang, Hui Jin, Eric, Lujie, Wen Hui, Shiu Yuen, Clarice, Shu Min, Shawn!!
The gals got pink roses and the guys, red ones. We were supposed to find someone with a matching pick-up line and exchange them. Mine's "Do you have a BandAid? I scraped my knee falling for you." So happens that Shi Bao had the same one!! Yea it feels much better exchanging roses with a friend than a complete stranger... I kept getting pricked by my pink rose, but life is a bed of roses - along with the petals comes the thorns. I'm happy to bring home a red rose because I like red roses a lot =) Especially long stemmed, sweet smelling ones. Kudos to Shi Bao for saying his line with so much passion; we were awarded m & ns for that.
Watching the Fac Prince and Princess nominees is fun. A lot of hilarious/half-scandalous things came out, but it was all in the name of fun. I hope everyone had good fun! Congrats to our new fac prince and princess! And Thank You Calvin and Yanan for representing our class!
Thank You Yee Kai and Jian Yang for serenading us with Canonball, Confidence (For You I Will) and Last Kiss, as well as for being so game about doing impromptu dancing/posing to metal, rap, oldies and dance music. And the Smack That item with Guo Bin! How often does your Fac Head invite people to smack your dep Fac Head's butt?
Doing Fac Dance again was such a great feeling... especially since it was with everybody else. I kicked off my shoes and did it barefoot in the lush carpet. Must have been the most comfortable floor I danced on =) Thanks Jonathan for joining me as dance partner halfway through! It doesn't have that same wild spirit as when we went to war during CNY dance competition, but nonetheless there was high spirit.
Rouge. A Red Affair. A Night to Remember.
V Day . 14.02.07 . 9.23pm
Listening to | Get High | F.I.R
I've never celebrated Valentine's Day to this extent before. Hwa Chong really makes it a big deal =)
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE GIVEN ME!!!
Ruiyi's Red Hot Chilli Peppers album, Jun Hong's Natasha Bedingfield album (I'm going gaga over the albums!!), Junice's gift pack, Tang's cake, Charis' breakfast cereals, Yeeb's NYGG truffles, Marilyn's goodies, Jesslyn's note, Eileen's note + chocolate, Jasmine's note + candy [yea dear, I'll settle for you ;)], Calvin's lollipop, Ying Han's flower + chocolates + note, Yee Kai's candy (thank you fac head for being such a dear!)
And thank you everyone for being appreciative! (um especially Alan's appreciativeness)
Eh I hope I didn't miss anyone out >< As I said, I've never celebrated to this extent before.
I'm currently having an overdose of chocolate >< I simply ate too much of it today...
I'm sorry if I made anyone cry during GP, kay? I didn't mean to... Yes, it was a sad story, but I thought it would only affect me ><
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
RMUN again . 11.06.06 . 4.48pm
Listening to | When You're Looking Like That | Westlife
Am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that
Thought I would just list some of the quotes from RMUN, for keepsake.
There are a lot more quotes which the chair mentioned, but that's all I remember for now...
Other memorable moments of RMUN:
RMUN 06 . 10.06am
Listening to | S.O.S. | Rhianna
GA Presence of Soviet Troops in Afghanistan council, I really miss you darlings! Terrible case of withdrawal symptoms...
There are some delegates I'm gonna remember for a long, long time... Aaron (Afghanistan) for his diplomacy in debate and humour out of it; Belinda (Argentina) for managing not to break under pressure during GA crisis; Yelin (Brazil) for his funny analogies (I loved the one about World Cup 82 best); the Cuba delegate for her persistant, emotional calls for world peace; David (Indonesia) for his humour (if sometimes misplaced); the little sec 1 Sudan dude who played Fifa World Cup and what not on his laptop; Andre (USA) for speaking in that calming voice while being assertive; Alan (USSR) for "esteemed chair, honourable delegates", "deeply saddened" and spiritedly defending USSR to the extent of threatening us with Security Council; Vatican City for peppering speeches with Bible quotes and last but definitely not the least, Glenn (Zimbabwe) for his good debates and wit. I still think Glenn deserved honourable mention. (maybe they would have given it if he didn't suan the uk guy)
Congrats HCI-Zimbabwe Delegation for being Best Delegation! With at least three awards/special mentions, you all deserved it! Kind of reminds me of MPP 05... HCI swept lots of awards then too...
I wish I had been a sharper debater at RMUN. I know very well that I wasn't at my peak this time round. If I was nearer my peak, I could do away with full scripts and get adequately fired up, pointing out weaknesses and defending my stand. Maybe if I was given a country more directly involved in the debate... But I loved the way RMUN 06 turned out, and I don't want to change it.
I really loved the last resolution our council passed. Nuclear "disarmanment" on Somalia. Isreal tried to call for the expulsion of Somalian delegates but the secretary general said that it was not in order because "once the resolution is passed, Somalia will cease to exist on the face of the earth". Somalia actually voted for the resolution on accounts of being self-sacrificing for the good of the world. Possible cure for cancer and Aids? Help reduce famine? USA/USSR, you guys really think very fast.
Chilly rooms and my being clamped by the mike stand aside, everything about RMUN was great. Debates rocked, delegates churned out sound resolutions, camaradie was there (as was eye candy) and who could forget our council's little "match-fixing"?
Fashion parade was hilarious. Lots of drag queens. The Jordanian drag queen was good. Haha. One of the judges told the delegates to cross-dress better the next time. Maybe we shouldn't have suggested the Ra Ra Rasputin song to USSR. Gave Alan and co lots of funny ideas about Moscow chicks. Monsieur, Rasputin was a love machine, but you all didn't need to be so explicit about it, you know.
I'm still puzzled as to why Afghanistan used "Hips Don't Lie" by Shakira. That song's part Spanish, not Afghan! And they did more tango than hip shaking, but kudos to Aaron for being the most feminine-gentle drag queen of the afternoon.
Dinner and dance... wish it didn't end that way for me (let's not go into the sad part of the story) but I guess I couldn't have stopped external things from happening... Loud music's ok, but even my comfortable wedges didn't provide the adequate cushioning for jumping through-out whole songs. Haha. The recliner chair. The guys were really game with it... *raises eyebrow* Wish there were more activities, like playing games and stuff... that would be fun too.
Gosh, I want another RMUN!
Adrenaline Rush . 20.01.06 . 10.16pm
The Mod dancers are absolutely HOT.
I love Hat Full of Stars! It makes you want to sing along, give them the well deserved standing ovation, and most importantly, dance along with them. I don't give a damn about the one or two glitches along the way; it was just awesome, in spite of, and maybe because of, everything.
Love the videos you all played! They're so abolutely cool and funky!
Liu Qian is as full of expression as always. She's fantastic. She danced in almost everything! Joanne's great. Estelle's great. Vanessa's great. Xue En's great. Mei Siew's great. Si Ying was sooo beautiful and alive. Yun Ning was just absolutely gorgeous and cool. Love the way you dance dear!
I'm so glad they did Fearlessly Feminine again. Love the music, love the dance! Each time I see it, something's different, but each time I love it. =)
Lights were absolutely cool, if occassionally blinding. Liked the bits where we could only see their silouhettes in the light, even though I also like very much to look at their faces. AV crew, you all rocked!
The show strenghtened my resolve to go learn mod dance at the end of the year... Love it so much!
A Hat Full of Stars.
Ticket price: Priceless
Packed . 18.08.05 . 9.19pm
Listening to: Explosive, Bond
Moot Parliament Debates was so fun! Let's take it from the top.
7.15 am in the morning, I was at clementi mrt panicking because I couldn't find Wei Jia and I wasn't sure how long it would take to get to Parliament House. Jing wanted my group to meet at 8am. Anyhow, Wei Jia came a minute or two after I started panicking and we hailed a taxi in ten seconds. I changed into my court shoes on the taxi because I wasn't confident I could balance in them on the mrt. I timed myself twice on the taxi, and Wei Jia gave me some constructive feedback.
To our surprise, we reached Parliament House in record time - 7.30-ish. The last song we were listening to before we got out of the taxi was Smooth by Santana ft. Rob Thomas. This was the song that revived Santana's career. It also affirmed Rob Thomas as a song writer. I love that song! Then we discussed the careers of Santana and Rob Thomas. I think the taxi driver must have thought we were quite weird. I must remember to pay Wei Jia the taxi fee tomorrow.
We passed security check, went inside the parliament cafetaria and did minor preparations with our own teams, like timing the speeches, minor amendments and wearing blazers. Must commend our school for being the earliest, most punctual group. Haha.
Got our entry passes, went through the second, more thorough round of security check, handed our bags over and headed to the room the is modelled after the parliament. No, we didn't use the real thing. A bit sad, right?
The first bill was the Computer Misuse Act bill, RI opposing HCI. [All the bills proposed are amendments] I must say Casey was a very good first speaker. Great vocab, smooth delivery. Kind of dramatic at times, and vaguely reminding me of propaganda speeches like in Animal Farm. I think the first speaker of the opposition was quite good too, but things started going a little downhill after that. I think the speakers all had their scripts messed up because they had to insert in so many rebuttals. I think RI won the vote in this bill, but I didn't vote because I couldn't quite follow the bill.
Then we adjourned for 10 minutes during which my team was getting a little nervous, making trips to the toilet and recieving well wishes from our fellow schoolmates. I hugged and got hugged countless times, I think. Being hugged is a blissful thing. Casey came up to wish me luck and I told him I was freaking out because at that moment in time I was. He said something like I could do it and I thanked him. I'm sorry I ignored him quite a lot because I was practising my speech then. Then Cam whisked me off to wait for her outside the washroom then we quickly went into the room to get ready. The fourth speaker of the opposition was quite mean. He came up to us twice with that smirk on his face and told us that we were going to lose. He said that it's a tradition to ensure a win.
I had a real kick out of the debate. Debates are fun, especially when you get into role and show some attitude for awhile. I think we were really well prepared, owing to Ms Ong's help and my team mates' [and maybe me] natural flair in writing speeches. [We do so many in school. If we can't write them by now something must be wrong.] We were quite calm and at ease because we had preempted about 90% of the arguments and had rebuttals already weaved into our speeches. I won't comment, but Cam said they weren't well prepared because the first and two speakers spoke mostly out of the bill itself and the fourth speaker, whom I shall not name, was quite obviously crafting his speech on the spot. [But he's a great storyteller]
Yay. The fourth proposition team speaker. He was talking lots of crap, but it was funny, and made good entertainment, if anything. Oh well. At least he can come up with analogies. But he was speaking to us like we were some sort of idiots and he concluded by saying that he had "totally rebutted all our arguments", which was highly untrue since he didn't seem to have heard what we said and pick up on our points.
I think I did okay as fourth speaker. I have never spoken with so much conviction, emotion and *venom?* in a debate before and when you really get into that role it makes your speech more convincing. [of course you must have a sound speech to start with.] I stumbled a bit on some impromptu rebuttals but I guess the rest was more or less okay. The floor was quite obviously two camps. Our school and HCI on one side, RI on the other. HCI was on our side for once because they were against RI. Sometimes I think they would help girls if only to trash RI. Of course not everyone thinks like that, but it's probably the majority. When the debate was open to floor, I think Casey made an interesting and somewhat amusing comparison to the chewing gum law. He said something like "do we want smoking to become the next chewing gum" and went on to say how strict the law used to be but that they had relaxed it due to unsatisfaction etc. RI guys posed us a few questions that jing and tian might have covered if they had time and I took to answering them later in my speech.
In the end, the vote was in our favour and we were quite elated. But then the debate wasn't fair in the sense that the two teams were not of the same standard so yah, it's not a tough fight. More hugs and squishes after the debate, a discussion on one of my points with Gua Khee [or as qian says, gua gua] and Casey complimented me by telling me that it was a great job. I thanked him but once again kind of ignored him soon after because we were busy wishing the next team good luck. This time they were proposing and their bill is a damn good one, just that they were a bit nervous.
It didn't go too well this time. The HCI opposition was extremely competent. This was the most civil debate of the whole morning as well, as everyone was speaking in moderate tones. Claire was quite nervous and it affected her presentation somewhat and she was really upset after that. I shall not mention more about it. In the end we lost, because it's obvious now HCI would support their own school and RI probably wouldn't support us after we "trashed" them. You could say voting is affected by human affection.
Anyhow after all the excitement the judges from ge branch debriefed us and said they were quite impressed and that the debating skills have improved significantly from last year's batch. They also said all three opp teams were good. *fakes smug grin* In general they liked most of what they saw.
Then I went to change out since Ying needed the blazer and skirt for her debate tomorrow and changed for CCA. *and Casey told me again that it was a good job. hmm.* Since most people were staying for the afternoon session and I didn't quite find the company I wanted, I decided to go for lunch alone. [because the cafateria food wasn't too appetising. At least not my type.] Then I realised it was raining and qian the kind soul lended me her jacket. I am wearing it now because I feel cold. Anyhow I knew I shouldn't have gone to long johns for lunch because it was going to make me lose my voice but I did anyhow.
After lunch I walked around for some time, trying to walk off the sleepiness I was feeling but it didn't quite work. Finally I decided I should go back to school for CCA. Guess what. I took the bus in the wrong direction and ended up in eu tong seng street area, where the bus terminal was. Quite freaky, because for some parts of the journey I was completely alone on the bus, the one and only person.
I was horrified to learn that I was going in the wrong direction but there wasn't anything I could do but wait for a bus to bring me back in the correct destination. Finally I reached school, albeit late for cca. CCA was fun because of my wonderful batchmates and juniors [most of the time shu ning and gaomin] and the scavenger hunt was quite fun. Rachel was quite hilarious.
Finally reached home and had dinner, a nap and a shower. Checked with silin the homework and school day. Apparently cme was a big upset but that's my class' private business and I'm not going to blab here. I think there's an ying yong wen to do but I know I won't be able to finish because I am exhausted physically and mentally. [partly from sleeping late] My maths is somewhat incomplete because I don't know how to do. I shall ask my classmates tomorrow. Right now, I really want my sleep.
FOA . 16.07.05 . 11.25pm
FoA was just AWESOME. It's so good, there are no words fit to describe it. My favourite item was our very own mod dance. If SYF was good, this deserves praise beyond words. Just wonderful. Everyone was so good on the whole. Si Ying you're wonderful on stage! Wish I could have talked to you but didn't see you after the performance or during duty... I loved the tango piece, though I thought maybe the girl doing the female part could show some more emotion in some steps. Kai Yi was a good emcee and she sure looked chio but I wished they hadn't made her smile like that. Wished CO had played the CNY piece too but overall it was great. Thanks Clara, Christal, Gua Khee and Yooj (ah gong!) for listening to me squeal about you all after the performance. Sorry Guo Ying, didn't talk much to you cos I was chatting with Clara (and playing silly hand clapping games).
I also think my J1 seniors did a real good job with the VIP reception. It's even better than those at some important functions. Decor was great too. All the seniors, juniors, m'dm and my darling 3 batchmates, we made it so good the VIPs must be dreaming of us tonight! (of course they'll dream of the Foa girls first.)
Instant marriages . 31.03.05 . 1.30pm
According to a newspaper article we discussed in HCL today, the number of Singaporean men who prefer foreign brides are on the rise. And thus the following quips by me and co:
Instant brides from Vietnam. Just add water (oops, I mean money) and ta da.
For the Singaporean woman:
To get married, lie about your education level.
These aren't meant to be insults to the foreign brides. I think it's pretty sad for them to be whisked off and married (happily?)-ever-after in three to five days...I don't know...if love works this way, then won't a lot more people be married already?
A sweet smile . 8.54pm
I haven't smiled like this in days, weeks. A real genuine smile that makes my day happy.
All because you talked to me, dear. And said things that lifted my spirits. Because you cared to walk up and talk to me although you could have pretended not to see me and walk in the opposite (intended) direction to change for cca.
And the beautiful smile on your face when I saw you later.
Merci. I love you.